Letting yourself go

So I've been sieving through some of my old posts recently to look for old pictures and guess what.. I'm so disgusted at myself. -___-

I have literally let myself GO, I've turned into a chubby ball, no I'm not even proportionately round like a ball. I'm LUMPY. I have lumps of fats distributed to random areas that do not look attractive at ALL.

I totally blame myself for getting so comfortable. I stopped taking care of myself to care for others. I have to quickly fix this shit before it becomes permanent otherwise I'll hate myself forever.

It's not like I didn't see this weight gain coming but I think it's about time that I go back to normal. Back to my normal portion and not a Nick sized portion. I cannot compete with you man.